SILENCE IS THE ANSWER

She stays, the breeze caressing her

Feels the warmth, heart pacing, she can’t tell

Blinded by this world, they get to adjudge

Her lips still craving to be touched, to express their love

Demons looming to devour her betraying soul

To punish her, for the world’s mistakes

“Why has my time come so soon?

Why not let me have more memories?

Is silence the answer?

Or it only raises new questions?”

                                                                                                         

Her heart still expects Him to profess

Kept her longing for His love, His trust

“Why did I get to be the sufferer?

Why you chose to crush my broken heart?

Your silence will only lead me to The Gates

Did it say your pain or the shame?”

Blinded by this world, they get to adjudge

Her lips still craving to be touched, to express their love

Emptiness in her world now,

Will never cede her life, will still defend,  

“Why are they the tormentors?

Why do I have to wear an armour?

It is war, Silence will only leave me scarred  

The scar then proves I’m a victor or a coward?”

She has no treasure to save, to lock away

Those who were entrusted, betrayed

“Why not let my muskets find the guilty?

Why should I not feel powerful, more than you?

Silence has never been the answer…”

THE FAINT DARKNESS

Telling tales of nights spent without sleep

My eyes, now set deep,

Blood streams down my nose, I don’t realize

I know the reasons, but still wonder why

It is only in my mind I now speak,

Heart is hollow & my will is weak

Why it had to happen this way, I wonder

What I thought, what made me surrender

A day filled with hours of weakness…

To a life of faint darkness

Lay lifeless without a concern,

In the middle, where that street turns

With a careless wonder I weep

Laugh without any reason I see

Still in that trance oh that ecstasy

Makes me live my dreams but only till I face reality

Why it had to happen this way, I wonder

What I thought, what made me surrender

A day filled with hours of weakness…

To a life of faint darkness

I never knew when it all started

What happened that our worlds parted,

I never knew when it all came together

What happened that I looked the other way.

I still fight those hours of weakness today

To realize the life of faint darkness wasn’t so faint in anyway

SHACKLES AND CHAINS

I wish to run, to stride forward

That flickering flame I see, run toward

To possess what is mine, the life’s reward

To claim my precious, create anew and not borrowed

But I bear the weight on my chest

Those that ride on my back,

Those expectations I cannot slack

I will crumble and fall it seems

The shackles and chains that bind my dreams

The road to the horizon is impossibility

These shackles are me, need to accept this reality

When can I break free, wondering if I ever will?

Am I allowing them to burden with more chains still?

I cannot reach out to hold the sun in my hands

Cannot feel the dirt that runs beneath me, the sands

I will crumble and fall it seems

The shackles and chains that bind my dreams

I cannot remember who put me here

Did I do it to myself or I let myself to be tied, all fair?

Every step I take takes longer than the first

Whom do I blame, or do I carry that as well?

                                               

I crumble and fall these shackles and chains that are a part of me

STAINS OF TIME

A world survived, rules I lived by,

I stand here in the rain, under the dark sky.

Here with a wilted face, a nimble frame

There He who gave me life, who remains without a name

So much I have lived by… I survived

But the future still mortifies

At the crossroads of time I’m

Nursing…cursing these stains of time

The feet have a billion miles

The lips done a million smiles

It is the heart that aches today, here and now

My spirit surviving somehow

The droplets reading, surviving my lifetime

Caressing my face, soothing, embracing

At the crossroads of time I choose which way then,

Which way for my next stains of time